I'm writing this codex entry because I feel this sort of panic about the future.
Always I say that there really is no "opportunity cost" in life, as you can most of the time still do the other thing later. However I'm getting more and more external feedback that there truly is a finite decision being made.
I'm not sure if it is just the panic talking, or if it is true.
However I am repeatedly reminded that I am getting older. I'm only 29 I KNOW that I have a lot of time ahead of me. Although I'm looking back at my 20's thinking maybe I should have been faster, done more, or perhaps went another way. Still going for the alt education route, but maybe deeply going into a MicroMasters, or SOMETHING.
You can always look back and ask "what if", but you shouldn't dwell on the past. I know that, and normally my issue is in fact the opposite. Forgetting to be in the present because I'm focused on the future.
The future is not always guaranteed, and certainly not in the way we expect. To be honest I don't think I've missed out on much per se, and maybe if I focused on other things I would be less of a person I am now. Who knows.
I've made a TON of free content at this point, but in my opinion I've Failed at making the big projects or paid content. I.e. books, etc.
In some other posts I've made over the years about my future career I detail the things I want to achieve in life.
- Innovate education with the Self-Education | The Modular Degree framework.
- Leave an impact on the swimming world with my How to Swim Book.
- Create a video game saga based on the ideas I've had since I was a kid.
- Become a multi-genre music producer, akin to Avicii, Kygo, Phil Collins, Queen, etc.
- Speak on how to become a Modern Content Creator.
- and hell eventually create an Oceanic Seastead Smart City.
All of which are pretty grandiose goals, and each have their own phase or two in the plan of my life.
Although I keep feeling like it is too late. By the time I start making music I'll be too old to get around to do live events or something.
Maybe I get stuck in my hometown forever, and fears like that.
Just thinking out loud at this point, but it is there.
I'm STILL stuck in my city I am in, despite telling people I'd be in Austin by now. Maybe my job choices this year were the cause, or maybe that's how it would have been anyway.
Perhaps this is akin to some quarter life crisis or something. Ah well I guess I'll get over it?
