Its my birthday, and we've come to that time of year where I come to grips with getting older. As I've told a lot of people hitting 30 has not really effected me as much as how turning 28 did. I'm not sure why, but that particular year was brutal and I spiraled a lot.

Lots of things have happened since this time last year.

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No video this week, as my camera has stopped working. The stupid USB controller in my PC acts up if I plug in two USB-C devices. Then even when I unplug everything and restart, it still doesn't want to connect.

What am I doing... NOW? July 2025

Well I am no longer working at Express, and I'm glad cause it was getting to be really grindy/tedious. It is ironic that I stayed as long as I did, with coworkers that didn't want anything to do with me. Only to stay long enough to get coworkers that actually get along with me, but I desperately wanted to leave because of the job itself. Part of it was the commute, it isn't as much of a long distance. 15min isn't much at all, but the actual best route was really terrible.

I've been running karaoke a lot lately again, mainly at social room, but I've even ran it at eastside a couple times this past month. Very surprising.

Had a moment last week where it really through me off. The owner took the soundboard from me half way through the night, and started controlling the volumes behind the bar. It is weird though because I am getting paid to do the job, I would have taken feedback if he told me anything, but instead he wanted to backseat drive. Something that extremely grinds my gears on a visceral level.

Other than that I'm not working at other jobs. Just trying to get content to pay more again.

However over the last week and half my camera stopped working, and my computer has been acting up more and more. I need to send it back unfortunately.

I have been working out!

Over the last 19ish or so days, I've been going to the gym regularly. Even if it is only for a mild workout. One of the days I did another workout at home, but otherwise I just go back to the gym in the evening if I need more.

I've been taking a fat burning pre workout, creatine, protein, and tribulus. I think they have been helping me stay in peak form, as I have been going really hard. My joints don't always want to cooperate, but I try to listen to them and leave if I must. The last thing I'd need is to injure myself and have to take a rest week/month.

I give up on dating.

Frankly, I've tried. I've tried so much over the years.

I've always been a romantic at heart, and ever since I was a teenager I wanted to be in a relationship. Not just for the sake of dating, but to have that connection with someone. I've dated here and there, and had a gf, but nothing substantial. Not for the lack of trying though as I said. I've even been on most dating apps off and on since they came out, which is a bit embarrassing to admit.

They all Suck.

They're designed to get you to pay, and otherwise you will not get matches or even shown people you are compatible with. Not to mention that unless you're in the top 8th/10th percentile of men, you will not get matches. Only 2% of the time, basically for every 200 swipes you'll get 1-2 matches. Half of them are bots, the other half usually don't message back cause they already deleted the app themselves.

I had gotten smitten for this woman recently, and tried to go out. Only to get ghosted. I get that I'm not always the greatest at text flirting, but I'm not that bad lol.

Thus I'm just gonna stop.
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PIOS Screenshot:

Not really any different, but I am looking into many ways of drastically changing the PIOS.

  • Using an AI plugin to help sort/organize/interact with my vault.
  • Using the new RSS Dashboard plugin to connect me with the internet, better than a web browser would.
  • Using the Home Assistant Voice device to verbally interact with my Vault like JARVIS.

In a bigger view #MACRO, What's Coming up

I'm not sure if very many people read these particular posts, as opposed to a newsletter you might have signed up for on here. I make the Now Page not only to process my thoughts, it gets me to essentially journal, when I don't as much normally (as I need to).

Funny that it is because they are public, that it gets me to do them. When most people would only journal in private.

Perhaps I need to focus on writing or videos, but not both. It isn't a lack of skill or time, but rather the diversification I already do.

If I just had one channel, one newsletter (plus the regular blog), and even just one podcast. I think I'd be fine.

But it is the fact that I have MULTIPLE of each that slows me down. I've caught up a ton with the written posts I wanted to make.

Videos not so much, but I've made a lot more than I anticipated, as I went with FLOW.

I intend to go hard on something here soon, maybe both eventually, as I have more time now. However I think more importantly than any of that, are the books I want to write.

Things I am consuming:

I've been obsessed with this song.

Also been watching things like: