Don't Try, but DO. Looking towards the Whole Life

Dustin Miller | PolyInnovator -

I was facing a feeling of incompletion today. Something akin to the mindset that I am not doing ENOUGH.

I have all of this time, I am young, and I should be taking advantage of this youthful energy. I may feel groggy, but compared to what I presume I'd feel like in 10, 20, 50 years.

This would be a ton better. Of course one would hope that I can keep a strong physique, and perhaps even better as I get older.

However you never know what will happen tomorrow.

My point is that I feel as if I am wasting my time right now since I am not doing enough. I am beyond frustrated that I am not where I want to be, in the cities where I want to live, with my future spouse, or even just being the creator that I want to be.

I am writing this post for a means of processing my thoughts, while listening to music. Hoping that I can fuel a campaign to rocket myself forward.

I don't even need to grow from it per se, but simply doing what I have set out to achieve ages ago.

I have a future that is waiting for me. You do too by the way.

This isn't even a blog post really, just a fireside codex entry/ a public journal. However I think these are important guide poles to the course of my life. Either myself or another would look back, and see what I was facing at this point in my life.

My body aches, my head is foggy, I'm always stressed, and I am not making any money (which is how I can achieve my goals). So what are you going to do about it? I ask myself.

In my head I'd answer with this or that, I'll do a sprint of posts, I'll work 2-3 jobs, etc etc.

Yet it isn't happening. The job thing isn't a lack of trying, as I have been actively applying. However no company wants me right now, and that is something I have to face. That doesn't change the fact I need to make an income.

That doesn't change the fact I have bills to pay.

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Fighting the urge to go to sleep. Getting back up and facing the world once more. I talked to someone today I felt was a reflection of myself, if anything a better timeline. No seed of jealously or anything like that, but rather HOPE.

This person showed me that the things you set for yourself, they CAN come true. If you work hard enough, and maintain your Four Pillars enough.

While I feel low, this at least brings me to a new hope for the high.